Monday, October 03, 2005

Wake me up when november ends...

I'm going to hibernate; act like a machine; think like nothing happened. I just feel like I want to hide forever from the world. Yesterday I summed up all my courage and asked (she who must not be named :P) to my formal. It didn't really go as planned, but I'll tell you guys that some other day. Anyway, apparently her valedictory is on the same day as my formal, WHICH kind of is really really really crap. Anyway, the day probably couldn't have got worse... then my cowboys lost the grand final, my liverpool team got thrashed by chelsea, real madrid won and kept a clean sheet, bali got bombed and God knows what else probably happened. Yeah... this week has been really crap, and i have a feeling the next few weeks are going to be worse. I just want to hide and get away from all this stuff happening to me. I have like 0% luck and it seems fate enjoys going against me. I just wish something significant would go right, or else its better to hibernate, or act like a machine that don't have feelings or emotions. Every glimmer of a high is met by a rock solid low, and this trend has been going on for like 17 years of my life. Either all the good times i should have are saving up for some spectacular future, or I'm just one more unlucky guy in the world. At the moment, I'd give so much for her to come to my formal, or even to see my team spectacularly win a game, but it won't happen. Someone remember to wake me up when November ends...

4 comments:

cherrie. said...

awww..it can't be THAT bad can it?? there there...it's ok, im here for u!!! wow, that sounds kinda weird..cos we haven't really been that close for a while aye..but dw!! i'm still here!!! just like i was the other day!!!! seriously aye..we should catch up some time!!!

Selena said...

awww, poor Joshi. Don't worry, it's not the end of the world. The cowboys dun play that well anyway :-P. And I'm sure there's someone out there who'll go to the formal with you. Nov dates are likely to clash with other stuff anyway.

Derek said...

hey cats here too
AYE YER! id hate to be rejected... once in a while i actually think of asking... but i dont anyway. i guess theres a good reason y it didnt happen, even though its hard to think of the reason... i guess this week has been pretty bad and dissapointing... ill wake u up when it ends :)

Anonymous said...

Remember the more you experience disappointment the sweeter the success will be. And one day its going to happen! Example: There was this prestigious piano competition, queensland piano comp, and i entered it every single year since grade 3 to grade 11 and never won. the 1st time i didn't make the final coz the adjudicator said "there were already too many asians in the final" (i'm serious dats what he said). And every single year i'd come pretty close but never make it, either due to my own performance or some 'political issues between piano teachers'. in grade 12, in my final year of piano, i finally won the senior division and to this day somehow i'm glad i never won it till then because it made it so much more valuable and memorable. I can give you other examples, and i'm sure others can too, but think of wateva's happening now as increasing the value of your future successes in wateva you do! Some are fortunate and reap success now, but for those of us (including me) who decide to wait (or are forced to wait) the prize is even greater at the end.
Jeff