Seasonal Change

Isn't it so nice and cool now that it's Autumn! The summer weather has finally disappearred and now we can look forward to cooler, cloudier, and more enjoyable days! Coming with this seasonal change is finally a real sense of change in my life. I feel at home in uni, and i have comfortably eased myself into this new life and all the suprises it offers. With uni comes more work and time management needed, and this is definately something new to me. I used to wake up at 8 40 to get to school at 8 55, but now i have to wake up at 6 30 to get to uni at 9am for a lecture! I get home from uni at about 5-6, and then it's dinner and ideally heading to the books, compared to getting home at 3 10 and bumming til sleep time! I guess i can't afford to bum around on msn that much anymore, since life is becoming ever so busy. Badminton time has grown from 2hrs a week to 7-10 hours or so a week.

Its just a pity to see time pass so fast, not being able to really enjoy and reflect on everything you've done or seen. Time is independant. Its one of the only things left that Man has not and will never have control of. Time is limited. Everyone has a birth and a death. Everyone will one day face the crossroads between heaven and hell. If everyone in the world just remembered this, they would put more thought into what they do with the time they have left.

As the wise Gandalf put it: "The only thing we have to decide is what to do with the time given to you."

Back to normal~

yes i am all good again... cept i have my first assignment due in 13hrs and 4 minutes?!?! panic time! anyway since my friend wants me to chuck my poems up.... i shall start with this one:

Time goes past day by day
And the feeling slowly disappears.
The love that I thought would last
For ten thousand years.

As the wind whistles by
And the hot breeze moves though.
My mind is silent and still
I suddenly think of you.

Your smile, your laugh, your presence
Fills my lonely, desolate soul.
The uncertain love of mine
Is once again made whole.

As the seconds pass and the minutes waste away
I feel we are gradually drifting apart.
But even if we are separated by life and death
You will always be in my heart.

p.s. You may realise i always write poems to do with romance... i have other ones but these ones always seem a bit better for some reason~

Different label, same deal...

You know, I thought being a uni student would tell everybody that I am an older and more maturer person, people would treat me that way... but I guess i was wrong. My opinion still counts as zilch. My comments are always jumped on with criticism and doubt. Not a single thread of benefit is laid to me, which is worse than before when I was sometimes given the benefit of the doubt because I was 'a kid'. I just feel so useless... so small... so restrained. Everything i have done feels like nothing now. When i offer my time and effort, I get debated with, ignored and looked down upon and sometimes i can feel the anger and hatred against me because i seem to think more wider and outside the box.

These past few months, I've been thinking of using the exit door. Other people and groups have chased for my effort and time, but i have for many years been faithful. I don't know if there is any point of staying in a place that i dont feel comfortable. I dont feel like anything positive is being achieved. People seem to all decide to stuff up my life at the same time....

Maybe its time for a change... a new setting... a fresh start

but for now, its just a maybe...

Sleep on the bus: a few bumps in the head
Sleep during a lecture: begging friends for lecture notes
Sleep during lunch breaks: an empty stomach
Sleep on the bus home: walking/busiing back a few stops
A good night's sleep! (or coffee :P): PRICELESS

10 things that are weird/interesting about uni:

1. When a prac from 10am til 5pm really is a prac from 10-11 and then do what you feel like after. (Monday, prac consisted of going to art gallery from 2pm til 5pm to sketch, so we bummed the whole time before that, and then arrived at art gallery at 2:30 and left at 4 :P)

2. Uni lecturers/professors are so lazy ( me and 4 other people don't have a table, drawing board, filing cabinet, chair or any space = we can't do work)

3. There are a LOT of adults doing first year

4. The microwave line is 99% asian

5. You see so many people you know everywhere you go (ran into the weird and crazy 'pancreas fiona' who is in 5th year doing med)

6. Begging lifts of people who have cars is neccesary to save bus money

7. Photocopying and ATM lines run for 10-50 metres (lucky i have my own photocopying place at the architecture library!)

8. There are many people who look alike so apparently its hard to tell your friends from random people (yes, my friend did that in melbourne... went straight up to her and got the wrong person :P)

9. Architecture is awesome because there is no homework and no exams :D (for the 2 subjects ive been to anyway)

10. Making asian groups is neccesary to survive in uni! (we got about 10 asians in architecture and about 6 of them are in our little group hehe)